I've been clean for almost an entire year now, its been really hard but until about two weeks ago I was doing okay. I am not sure anyone will look at this after a year absent but I am at the edge of beginning the up swing of a yoyo diet and I need to get my head right before I head back to knocking on 300 pounds door. I am out of control. I am eating, I have severe body image issues, I don't want to stop myself, and if I don't fix it right now while I am typing it will never happen. Now to clarify the lowest weight I ever achieved was 193 currently I average 200 with a 5 pound swing, so the physical damage hasn't caught me yet, but it will if I don't change now. So right this second I am committing to do right and to sorting the mess that my head has become on here again.
